The little depression I experienced during my manic-depression was not like depression as anyone else had ever described it. It was very violent and angry, and I was full of rage. I wasn't lying in bed. Andy Behrman angrybeddepression share on social
Money is a huge issue for manic depressives. Sometimes the problem is not nearly on the same scale as it has been for me, but nonetheless, it's difficult to deal with. Many get themselves into debt that can take years to clear up, write bad cheques, shoplift and borrow huge amounts from family and friends. Andy Behrman amountbadborrow share on social
The guilt I felt for having a mental illness was horrible. I prayed for a broken bone that would heal in six weeks. But that never happened. I was cursed with an illness that nobody could see and nobody knew much about. Andy Behrman bonebreakcurse share on social
Friends and family were convinced I was functioning just fine because I was efficient, productive and successful - who wouldn't be working twenty hour days? I had everybody fooled with my illness. Andy Behrman convincedayefficient Change image and share on social
My ever-present mania meant I was never phased by staying up twenty hours a day or by the different time zones. I was Superman. Andy Behrman dayhourmania Change image and share on social
After graduation in June of 1984, I moved to Manhattan. My first stop was a psychiatrist, who in less than our first fifty-minute session again diagnosed me with depression. Andy Behrman depressiondiagnosefifty Change image and share on social
My eating habits are the only behaviour of mine that are still manic. I can't walk by a restaurant, a bakery, an ice-cream store or a candy store without making a purchase; the amount of calories I take in today are at least five times as many as I took before starting on all of this medication. Andy Behrman amountbakerybehaviour share on social
In my most psychotic stages, I imagine myself chewing on sidewalks and bulging and swallowing sunlight and clouds. Andy Behrman bulgechewcloud Change image and share on social
My illness is one often characterized by dramatic overspending - in my case through frenzied shopping sprees, credit card abuse, excessive hoarding of unnecessary material goods and bizarre generosity with family, friends and even strangers. Andy Behrman abusebizarrecard share on social
Manic depression is a type of depression, technically, and it's the opposite of uni-polar. Manic depression is also called bi-polar disorder. Some people don't like to call it that because they think it makes it sound too nice, when the reality is if you have manic-depression you have manic-depression. Andy Behrman calldepressiondisorder share on social